Wednesday, January 16, 2008 @ Wednesday, January 16, 2008
today is a crap day lah.
so tired and sick of everything...
my father contacted HR for my pay slip stuff.. so whole headquarters and head office shld be able to know me. ya famous in the wrong way.
dez today realli like bother her a lot lah. then she sAY she understand but thats make me feel realli bad and today they let me go on time without throwing rubbish and stuff.. feel realli realli bad. cried like since i finish work. was trying to contain myself the whole day.it realli sucks leh.
now i think ppl may treat me differently in tthe cafe. realli..so tiring. i actually hope my life could just end cause i relali didnt want to bother anyone but i cant,.. got to let this stuff settle itself, take my a level results. get married bla bla.. haha. i want to live long long de. so cant end my life. have to face this prob bravely.
great thanks to dez cause she must like do a lot of stuff.. great thanks to kon for hearing my thoughts and feeling. i realli dun want to feel weak but i cant help it lah. i like so emo today lah. like realli.. i am like not strong i guess..
i noe my father care and stuf.. realli thanks but kind of tiring for me. tiring mentally and when i cry tiring physically and emotionally. Its realli tiring to be his daughter but like he take gd care of the whole family lah. ya. i knoe is like for the better for me cause want clarify stuff but i donno why i feel so terrible. ya loh. just hope this thing will clear up and my job will be more smooth sailing.
cause dez and all stuff relali treat me very nicely and like try to accomodate my schedule. realli like thousands of thanks.
how to face them? today let me go exact on time. guess they are thinking they actually meet a very terrible and troublesome staff.
In my life.. like i try not to cry.. but i cant help it lah,. many a times, not bec of studies than bec of my father loh. ya
.. 90% is like bec of this two things loh...
May God bless me, hoping that my life will be more smooth sailing.
